Growing up.

Recently i realise that alot has changed everyone is growing up, they are growing up so fast i cant keep up with them. Im 22 now cant believe it im so old and im still a uni student >.<. Everyone has moved on and started a real life since just 3 years ago, 3 years to me doesnt even seem a long time but alot has happened in these 3 years...so i guess it is a long time. I watched my close ones, not even just close ones but people i know or was a close ones move on and now hardly even talk. They change from just a ordinary girl to a woman i feel like im not growing up i feel like im still a girl, infact i am still a girl. Even those who are younger than me are growing faster than me, growing to start a real life of there own or a family of there own.

My little cousin has had a Baby girl i still cant beleive it, im a auntie, i dont feel like an auntie >.< just more like a baby sister to me. I cant wait till uni is over, then i can get my own life sorted, to do what i want to do, to be honest i dont know what i want to do. I want to go out and find a job but not in design its too stressful, but then what can i do if i dont do design, something to do with fashion... i dont know.

when i was younger just before i put myself into design i couldnt decide weather to go into hair and make up or clothing design. it was mainly styling what i wanted to do but then i couldnt accept that going into styling means no more making clothes. So i ended up with design, ive been searching for models to do some shoots of my designs and build my portfolio, i realise i want to do styling but styling as in make up artist, hair styling, photography everything. i wish i could study them all.

just getting out some random thoughts...

wish the time could just stop at least for a week maybe...

Its been a month already, its been over a month since grandad left us and since i last posted... alot has happend... family, uni, money, life... every moment that passes by seems to be precious to me at the moment. After loosing someone in the family loads have gone through my mind, i wish i had more time spent with him. I feel like taking a break from uni just to stay at home and even just to do nothing be a bum...

But theres still that other side of me that tells myself to complete the last 6 months... i will do this, i wont give up no matter what but i just wish i could just have one week break with nothing to bother or stress about.

i just handed my first module in, i handed it in late because the deadline was the day after my grandads funeral and i just cuouldnt make it on time. But luckily my university allowed me to do so.

Anyway im on my next module now and its linked with my FMP, the concept and the development of my final collection... im struggeling i cant think of a good concept or idea, i have spent 2 weeks and still nothing seems to be interesting. ughhh >.<

Yesterday i attended my best friends graduation Poling Wan I'm so proud of her, she finally made it, so so happy :) met her whole family for the first time and they are just cute ;p

mwah rachael x

:(

very sudden... not too sure how to react... R.I.P grandad you will always be missed... you and grandma can be together again now, you guys look after each other...

Ready to bang out final year!!

So I finally got my hands on a real mannequin! I was so excited about it when i decided to get one and finally i got it :) cost a lot but its going to last me forever and will be my all time best friend :p haha i got a size 12 because this is the standard and average size in the industry, easier to adjust garment smaller or bigger. Its the size that sits in the middle of size line. :) and its what i work on at uni...

Any way I also made myself a huge calendar to have a final year schedule. Already been so busy its just unbelievable... i dont even get why im so busy either >.< havnt even had chance to uploud my holiday pictures from ibiza and ive been back for like 3 weeks now...woah gone so fast actually... nearly a month >.< where has it gone!!!

just thought i do a quick update incase i strt leaving this blog empty again >.<

my little excitement of opening my big package... :)

Receiving my baby :)

cut around the tape to open the top of the box

Then realise that the top of the box is a lid >.< i feel like a fool lol

Inside the box after taking the bust out

All the bits to the mannequin

And the free little bits that came with it too :) a measuring tape and a cool little tool kit to assemble the mannequin together.

Tada put it together all by myslef :)

Nite all xxx

Recent Beauty Haul...

havent done a haul in a while... heres one just on some beauty products i bought recently :)



*L'elan vital eye mask for dark eye circle & puffiness
*Bioglo clearpore deep cleansing mask
*MAC Glaze lipstick in Hue (soft pale pink)
*Bobbi brown eye shadow brush
*Shu uemura eyelash curlers



L'elan vital eye mask for dark eye circle & piffiness from eCosway RRP £9.90
Contains 5 pairs per pack got them ready for my all nighters back at uni >.< tried a pair when i went to Ibiza felt pretty refreshing :)



Bioglo clearpore deep cleansing mask from eCosway RRP £5.90
My fav product at the moment!! it is absolutley amazing... the mask is really sticky when applying it on, when it dries completley you peel it of, can be a little painful but the result is wonderful!!! i only put it around my nose and chin area and after using this it feels so smooth that i end up keep touching my nose because of how much this product has really worked...



MAC Glaze lipstick in Hue (soft pale pink) from Selfridges (Manchester) RRP £13.50
Was doing a random shopping spree last week realise i hardly buy things to treat myself. wanted a nude/pale colour... not really warn this out yet but i love the colour and keep puttin it on at home lol the smell is really nice too :)



Bobbi brown eye shadow brush from Selfridges (Manchester) RRP £23
This one put a hole in my pocket!!... lol i was actually looking at the eye shadow brushes at MAC then my friend was trying out a product at Bobbi brown and I ended up going over to check it out, saw that the girl who was serving my friend had eye shadow brushes. I asked if they sell them and she said yes and explained that it is quite special because when changing eye shadow colour to blend the colours you can tap away the 1st eye shadow used and then use a different colour without it mixing the colours together on the brush before applying it. i just answered ill have one... my friend asked how much is it i said dunno then wen the girl asked me to pay i ws like ok bcz it is Bobbi brown... then my frend was in shock i realise after haha £23 for a brush...but my friend has a set of MAC brushes and she says Bobbie brown are better anyway...lol haha something to treat myself :) friend shocked about me buying a make up brush for £23 and then she ended up buying a marc by marc jacobs handbag...we went past stand and she fell in love with it just like that...



Shu uemura eyelash curlers from Harvey Nichols (Manchester) RRP £20
Last but not least Shu uemura eyelash curlers... i been wanting these in a while.. finally got my hands on them... got told by a few ppl this baby is amazing on us asian eyelashes that never stays up. and its true i regret not getting these earlier!! alot earlier.. i always thought it was the mascara. me and my sister have been investing on so many different mascara brands that can hold the lash up but really all i needed was these beautys >.< i know wht to get for the little sisters bday now :p :)

anyway thats all from me today...Adios!

uni time...

First day back at Uni today...and ive been doing all nighters already >.< well holiday to Ibiza was amazing!! apart from tom hardly went in the water leaving me playing in the water on my own and he just sat and sun bathed...so boring...haha well i tanned!! tanned all over haha have like 4 tan lines on my hips from the different style bikini bottoms i wore... hmmm i will post some photos up from the holiday later on this week because tom still has them...

I didnt manage to finish my summer project the sketchbook only had about 27 pages in and just took it to uni i was soooo nervous!! my heart was pumping so fast i strted walking around the house, doing star jumps and spinning around in circles...haha dunno why was really panicking...In the end my tutor ended up talking for hours and totally forgot about presenting the sketchbook everyone was so happy!! :) He was talking about 3rd year and threatening us how tough its going to get so now im even more crapping it!...

well hopefully get more work done over the weekend and more ready to go back on monday...only in today this week to enrol then start properly next week... i still havnt slept yet and im planning not to untill later in the niter so i dont have a messed up sleeping pattern like usual :) thort i just do a short blog entry so im here dropping by :) going to go put a mask on n relax now blog laterz :)

so excited!!

well im of on holiday tomorrow!! To IBIZA!! :) just me and my boy cant wait!! hehe
i got my nails done yesturday quite simple just whit tip acrylics... got them really short too so they look pretty cute and very easy for me to use. never had them this short with fake nails and it feels like my normal nails... xD

i got my toes painted too french manicure :) all ready and look pretty for the hol...hehe going to go for one week!! :):)

hmmm ok so i went to the family wedding on Tuesday. It was amazing!! there was soooo many family members the restaurant was so full that there was not enough seats for everyone and my dad and koo ma was moved to the special family table the brides table. Left me and bro with some family members we had no clue who they are. One old lady is my grandads sister so they said but never met her ever!! haha so there was about 400 people at this wedding and they had entertainment too with kareoke whilst we eat... dont normal have that. And you could stay at the restaurant till 12am... but there was another after party for the younger people and me and bro went there was wierd didnt kno anyway but was good to see the place and how romantic everything was set... all dedicated to the bride and groom and very creative...:)

Anyway i will like to congratulate to my cousins wish them happiness and wealth :)

secondly Happy Birthday to my Koo Ma...it was her birthday yesturday, it has been a year already remember writing this last year on here :p...

Today im goin to meet Pauline for Nandos :) shes returned to england for a few weeks...then i will be carrying on with this silly sketchbook before i jet of to SPAIN :)

xxx

Its been a week since i last blogged already...

time flies super duper quick! it only seems like yesterday i wrote on here... Well i been quite busy so that proberbly one of the reasons why time goes so quick.. just been working thursdays-saturdays. only 3 days i know but it seems like i'v put all my time and energy over the weekends rather than my summer project. >.< Not good, not good my summer project is still to be lifted of. oh no's i aim to have at least 45 pages done before this Friday... >.< i hope i can do it! i have 3 days! lol haha and im attending a family wedding tomorrow... dont actually know this family but its somehow my cousin or traditionaly how you would say it, it is second cousin...

Anyway last Wednesday was me and Toms 3rd year Anniversary! we've now been together for 3 years <3 :) hehe every year we think about and would say how if we was still together from the first time we got together (which was 31/08/03) we would have been together for 8 years now.. lol haha oh well we still somehow got back together so i guess he is the one :)

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary baby <3

we only bought each other a card (well i got him a little Me to you bear) oh n we did go to TGI Fridays for a meal!! was yummy yummy :) we try to save money because we have plans for this coming Friday! which i cannot wait!! :) Let you know what is happening on Friday :p hehe so so excited!!! xD

Hmmm... i should get on with my work but i just cant be bothered and im waiting for my brother and dad to arrive from Doncaster at the moment...
Its like 1.20am im Bored and tired -.-" aiiii...dont even know what to write no more...can you tell?...

anyways mwah x

P.S oh and finally i have posted my fashion films that I did... check them out :) -----> on the rite of my blog -------> ------> --------> ------->

HI hi HI hi HI!!

Havent blogged in months!! >.< and ive been back from shanghai since end of may! ive just been chilling, chilling and chilling!!... and now its summer project time again!! i remember last year this time i was so busy on the magazine! Well this year its not so painful have to produce a sketchbook that includes a body of research on a garment. Iv chosen to do the Sari, a type of garment the indians wear. Need to dig deep on research yet... not really done much only just decided what garment to do.

Well anyway placement was amazing!! huge inspiration and experience!! only thing i got stuck on was communication i couldnt understand the people. It would be so much easier if i have a english face people would talk to me or try to talk to me in english but being chinese alot of the people expect me to KNOW Manderin!... i got the placement last min and had to jet of for it as soon as my last deadline was handed in. The company i worked for is called Peony Rice check them out it was the most perfect work experience i could ever dream for!!...

i must admit though nearer to the time of leaving i was so happy to leave because of being away from friends, family, tom and internet communcation wasnt good at all. sometimes i felt alone not having someone i knew around me. But at least Pauline the Founder of Peony Rice was really nice and chatty. Even though i only just met her she made me feel welcome and was like a big sister to me :) i do miss it but i dont know if i could cope any longer >.< im so weak!!

Hey!! im weak but im such a brave one :) haha i had to lie to my dad that i was travelling from HK to SH by plane and with Pauline, just so he doesnt get worried... lol but really I travelled on a coach from HK to Shenzhen, then shenzhen airport to shanghai airport on my OWN, not knowing what the hell people are saying because they spoke Mandarin... then i returned the same way... my mum knew but had to keep it quite from dad...until i got back haha.. he didnt agree to me going to shanghai for the placement at ALL!! never mind knowing that i was goin all by myself... but when he found out he was saying im not scared at all and dearing.. i dear to do alot of things and that he wouldnt even dare him self even though he is almost 50 and a GUY!! lol haha

well since i been back i havnt done much at all just CHILLED!! went to toms grad and beckys grad. wore both of there hats :p i graduated twice this yr already :p haha just waiting for Po's :p

Toms Graduation <3
Beckys Graduation :)

hmmm i done a carboot sale ON MY OWN again!! mum and dad same again saying im not scared and brave. :p haha i do realise i am really independant, everytime theres a next step in life i tend to move away from all the people i know and make new friends... :) in a way its good to get to know new people but then i end up loosing contact or not speaking to the close ones.

hmmm well lately people have asked me what i wanna do after i graduate.. like find a job, carry on studying, where or what area job... i dont have a clue i just reply i will live back at home and sponge of my mum :p haha she even agreed lol :p

well i think i should get back to my project >.< enough blogging for now...

mwah x

short update...

well... im on placement!! in SHANGHAI!!! blogger doesnt work properly in china neither does facebook or google >.< so im just here doing a quick update just to say im in shanghai at the moment. :):) woop ill give a full update when i get back! i promise :) got lots to fill in :) love u all mwah xxx

Valentine...

Today i left doncaster to go to Sheffield to give a surprise to tom after he finished his exam i took him to a spa :):):) loved it so much it was so relaxing and pretty cheap too...£45 per person and get two treatments done we both had massage and facial then you could spend the whole day there in the sauna, swimming pool, jacuzzi or gym with a lunch too :)

after the spa we was meant to go for a movie and meal but because Tom had not slept much from revising for his exam we scraped the movie and went home to sleep lol...

we went to Fridays for dinner was so gooooood :):):)
we celebrated valentines day early because next week we will both be busy at work and uni..and coincidence we both got work of this weekend :) mine for CNY and his for exam...


us in our gowns at the spa :)

Happy Chinese New Year....!!!

The year of the rabbit!! wish everyone health and wealth :)

going to go back to doncaster and surprise my family today :)
went to grandmas last nite for new year dinner...big feast, the actual traditional way is to celebrate the new year with a big feast on new years eve. As new year day we are meant to be a vegetarian and give up meat for the day. But now people just celebrate like any normal new year!... just being greeding having two new years and celebrating it the same way now =.=

Also the night before new years day we are ment to have cleansed ourselves from head to toe and get into clean fresh bedding and new underwear and pj's...i totally forgot and did it all last min!! thank god for haveing 24 hr supermarkets...did so much running around tho, asda and tesco to find the cheapest place for stuff... i wanted new bedding too so all together i spent about £35-£40.. im skinted!!!...normally have the mother sort everything but too bad im on my own...:( well hopefully i will recieve sum red pockets so i dont feel too poor :):)

February already...where did January go?...

Time flies so quick. Ive already been back to uni from the xmas hols, handed my last module in for semester 1, had a week of (reading week) i dont read tho. And now im starting semester 2 O.o

another update...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! welcome to 2011!!

its been a week since i last posted already...time flies so quick!!..doesnt feel like its 2011 >.< well not like i know what 2011 should feel like lol... But it doesnt feel like its the new year, or that its January already!... i only have 5 days left till im back at uni again!! i really dont want to go back! i havnt done any uni work, i havnt applied for any placements!! i feel tooo lazy i want to rest more!! >.< aiii...everyday i remind myself how much work i have to get done but then i think about the stress and the all nighters i will have to go through!! ahhhhhh!!! i just dont want to think no more!!

well anyway its been 5 days into the new year already...gone quick!! been quite busy actually...NYE was ment to go out into manchester for count down into the new year but i had work and was too late when we got out...couldnt decide what to do because toms friends couldnt come out so we decided to go home but then we decided to go back out to go tai wu just the two of us..had Lobster and a big meal was yummy... on new year day i didnt have work so went to toms...his family was preparing his sisters wedding :)
on the 2nd it was his sisters wedding... i was to help put her make up on and to do some tricks to the groom before taking the bride away :) he had to answer 9 questions and if he got it wrong we made his friends either drink soya sauce, vinegar, eat wasabi or do press ups... at the restaurant i met all of toms family!! was a lil scary didnt kno if i should follow him around greeting all the guests or just sit on my own haha...


3rd...Bank holiday monday luckily abakhan was open i finally got my fabric for my work and some wool need to do some knitting... then came back to doncaster...Today well yesturday seen as its passed 12 my mummy finally got my left wing mirror on Harry fixed...dont think i mentioned but whilst at work about a month or 2 ago someone snapped the whole wing mirror of on my car >.< iv had it selotaped for the past few months... Next i need to get my break light sorted one of them has gone... maybe when i get that week of in 2 weeks time (assesment week) i will come back again to get it sorted out :) NEED to SAVE up!!

ahh talking about money my loan is coming on monday I CAN NOT WAIT!!!!BUTTTTTTTT i do not want to go back to UNI!!!! :( :( so poor rite now that me and tom decided we wont get anything each other for christmas but to get a netbook to share when our loan comes through :) but it was christmas so jus got him somthing very little some gym gloves from tesco >.< and i only just got his 2 year anneversary present finally like a few weeks ago... haha got him some All Saints jeans :) i wanted to get him his own number plate!!! but he said he didnt want it bcz ther will be hassle if sold his car >.< oh well his lose lol :p