Recently i realise that alot has changed everyone is growing up, they are growing up so fast i cant keep up with them. Im 22 now cant believe it im so old and im still a uni student >.<. Everyone has moved on and started a real life since just 3 years ago, 3 years to me doesnt even seem a long time but alot has happened in these 3 years...so i guess it is a long time. I watched my close ones, not even just close ones but people i know or was a close ones move on and now hardly even talk. They change from just a ordinary girl to a woman i feel like im not growing up i feel like im still a girl, infact i am still a girl. Even those who are younger than me are growing faster than me, growing to start a real life of there own or a family of there own.
My little cousin has had a Baby girl i still cant beleive it, im a auntie, i dont feel like an auntie >.< just more like a baby sister to me. I cant wait till uni is over, then i can get my own life sorted, to do what i want to do, to be honest i dont know what i want to do. I want to go out and find a job but not in design its too stressful, but then what can i do if i dont do design, something to do with fashion... i dont know.
when i was younger just before i put myself into design i couldnt decide weather to go into hair and make up or clothing design. it was mainly styling what i wanted to do but then i couldnt accept that going into styling means no more making clothes. So i ended up with design, ive been searching for models to do some shoots of my designs and build my portfolio, i realise i want to do styling but styling as in make up artist, hair styling, photography everything. i wish i could study them all.
just getting out some random thoughts...
